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The Rise and Fall of Studded Belt Muffin
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| Don't. Just don't. |
[Aug. 10th, 2007|12:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Iris - The Goo Goo Dolls | ] |
I know that your
hurt,
serious,
or need someone when every sentence ends with my name.
But the only problem is,
that when you use it, you're referring to someone else.
I want to help, but words do me no good.
All I can think of, is to hold you in my arms and tell you it's going to be all right.
First, you have to believe it.
Move on, or go back...but don't stand in the middle.
Feelings can go away, not matter how much you love...
but scars never do.
Painful reminders of what you were.
Don't.
Just don't. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 14th, 2007|11:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dance Hall Drug- Boys Like Girls | ] |
Old memories brought up by old music.
Temporary thoughts revived by (my)fan fictual words.
Depression again settles in.
Not a person to care, no one is there.
I wish I could tell you what you told me,
but not sure if you'd care the way I did for you.
Posh + Becks, me and you...but I don't think my
fan fictual words will ever do.
Just take care, please. Don't hurt anymore.
You're too beatiful to scar up yourself.
Take my advice, I've been there.
I know what I want, but don't know how to get it.
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The candle light flickers from my very presence. The shadow shading the parts that don't live. A black heart centered on the wall. Red heart. Three scars. Black flames on the sides. Ink it to me so I may not forget. I look in the mirror and try to accept who I really am. I try, I try. For about two seconds I do, then I think of you. I put me, the one I want to be, in a fictional place to stay. I give me what I want and make it interesting. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 12th, 2007|10:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sober- Kelly Clarkson | ] |
You say you'll call but you never do
You don't understand how much I love you
You're just another scar on my arm
Along with the others that did so much harm
I don't even care anymore
I've moved on
But the scars on my arm still stand strong
A painful reminder of what you were
the importance in my life that you lived
It's no longer there
I'm not sure it ever was
I'm not sure I should leave
or leave the scars the led me
I'm not sure how I feel
I'm not sure... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2007|07:07 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | The Freshman- Verve Pipe | ] |
Once again...I'm just the "friend". Someone to talk to but never to be loved. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 21st, 2006|11:02 pm] |
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Laying on the lushous green grass with the soft summer breeze sweeping over as the stars gaze down upon us. You right beside me curled up with my arm around you tight. Wishing on ever star that ever shot. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 15th, 2006|11:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | gloomy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Such Great Heights- The Postal Service | ] |
While you walk out the door tonight
on your way to the Christmas dance alright,
listen up, close your eyes, tell me eight more lies
while you're there
I'm wishing on a time right here
Please come back to me
don't let me be
I hope as you dance with someone that you never knew
you'll think about the guy always knew you
Face up from the ground
staring at the bright yellow stars
sparkeling on the ominous black sky
As your head rest on my chest
and I finger through your hair
wisper to me what I want to hear
One more tear falls to the keyboard
another year that leaves me broken hearted
11:11 I've given up on
not that it matters because it's come and gone
I love you.
Nothing will change.
I love you.
Lets get used to the pain. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|02:20 am] |
| [ | music |
| | I'll Tumble 4 Ya- Boy George & Culture Clube | ] |
Go away and don't come back
all you've done to me is pull me up and shoot me down
You did all you needed to do
for me to realize that I'll never be with you
Voicemails spam me during the night
I don't call back because I don't want to fight
All I wanted was for you to like me
all I ever wanted was to be with you
I.EFING.HATE.YOU
Go away
move like you said you would
and maybe you'll take everything you brought with you
back to the hell you came through
Looks aren't everything
and it took me a hell of a long time to figure that out
But one thing to you,
is thanks for being the bitch I never knew |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 25th, 2006|02:33 am] |
| [ | music |
| | I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing- Aerosmith | ] |
Happy? Nothing ever is. Save me from true love and don't let me have her. It sucks, so do I. Depressed as usual. No one to talk to that cares. I didn't know she was a bitch, but she turned out to be. I'll never be good enough for anyone. I wish that someone cared. |
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| I don't wanna miss a thing- Aerosmith |
[Nov. 22nd, 2006|09:42 pm] |
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 24th, 2006|01:45 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Rockstar- Nickelback | ] |
Nickelback Rockstar Lyrics
I'm through with standin' in lines
to clubs I'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
and I'm never gonna win
this life hasn't turned out
quite the way I want it to be
(Tell me what you want)
I want a brand new house
on an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
for ten plus me
--(For what you need)--
I need a a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet
--(Been there done that)--
I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name
[CHORUS]
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and
Live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And well...
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free
--(I'll have the quesadilla, ha-ha)--
I'm gonna dress my ass
with the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life
For fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair
And change my name
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
we'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blonde hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
I'm gonna sing those songs
that offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills
from a Pez dispenser
Get washed-up singers writing all my songs
Lip --sync-- 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong
Well we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in Hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
in the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair
And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary of
today's who's who
They'll get you anything
with that evil smile
Everybody's got a
drug dealer on speed dial, well
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar
Hey, hey, I wanna be a rockstar |
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| Lyrical Lies |
[Oct. 14th, 2006|05:15 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Hide and Seek- Imogen Heap | ] |
I feel alone in the midst of all these people
the overcrowding just overcrowds my soul
please dont leave me
please don't stay
let me be who I want to be
love me as if you really do
so I cannot love you
Moving away does nothing but bring me closer
cry more tears
add more cuts
all I wanted to give you was a hug and a teddy bear
the only thing I've ever wanted was for you to see me clear
Lyrical lies will not save us
nothing we can do makes anything better
my heart is falling apart from all the words
my tears are crying no more
lyrical lies are the only thing that gives me motivation
to give you my only toleration
don't leave me in the dirt
go go away and leave me cutting my heart |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 14th, 2006|01:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful? ...never | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hide and Seek- Imogen Heap | ] |
Alone in the dark spending my last hours with her many miles away
I wish I could tell you I feel about you before you leave
please don't go, please don't leave us all
all you'll get from is a gift and all I get is maybe a hug in return
No one to look forward to everyday
not one person is my motivation of getting out of bed
I hope you come back
please don't forget about me
because I'll never forget about you.
I cry at home behind closed doors
I almost wish you could see me
see how painful it is for me for you to leave
I want to give you a hug and tell you that I love you before you go
let me have that chance
since I couldn't have your last dance
Watch my heart shatter to the floor
see the tears crying no more
My life is breaking away
please stay with me
so I don't have to bleed all day
I'm just so depressed that you're leaving...I can't do anything...It's painful to look at you...I don't even want to be here anymore. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 12th, 2006|10:11 pm] |
Spending tonight sleepless and in tears
because I can't seem to imagine my life without you
I was sitting at the corner of bed, a few minutes ago, letting the tears stain my face and fall to the floor
I'm depressed like I've never been before
I wish you wouldn't leave
let me go with you
I wanted to go to homecoming with you last year
I wanted to go to homecoming with you this year
but now I'll never have another chance
I can't do anything I feel so sick
ahh man I cant finish...more to come... |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 10th, 2006|07:08 pm] |
I want to love you. Love me back so I can.
Remembering good times we've had. Contemplating on bad times we're having. Forseeing the future...nothing ahead for us. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 6th, 2006|10:16 pm] |
When I get up and say your name
it flows out of me and into the rain
like I've never said it ever before
but all I'm dreading is walking through that door
Cause when I see that face of yours
I know I'll cave and my words will pour
What I want is not what you need
but all I want is for you to need me
Watch my heart shatter to the floor
look away as my tears will pour
My face is stained
but you'll never see any of my pain
I'm traped in a world
Where all I can do is think about you
but I know every damn word is not all that true
But the one thing I've ever wanted to say to you
you'll never hear
cause you never cared
Now I'll slash my wrist
and take another pill
waiting for the right time to kill
kill of the dreams of you and me
and maybe I'll be me, for once
I'm holding your hand
and we're drawing in the sand
writing love notes back and forth
but the tide comes up
and washes the dream away
but it never really mattered
cause you never cared |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 2nd, 2006|11:57 pm] |
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I try as hard as I can to hide it from you. To keep it away from you so neither one of us gets hurt. I put my love for you in a bottle and let it float out to sea, hoping that one day you'll discover it. He treats you like an object, I don't understand. Take me, make me happy, stop me from hurting. Please take my broken heart and throw it away. You can have it, I don't want it anymore. I would get closer, but loving from a distance is much, much safer than loving up close and personal. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 1st, 2006|12:31 am] |
BOWLING FOR SOUP LYRICS
"Next Ex-Girlfriend"
I don’t wanna meet your dad
Don’t wanna hump your sister
Don’t wanna do it to your best friend either
I don’t want you messin around and givin me a blister
And leave me illin for the penicillin
When you walk out I don’t wanna feel left out
Cuz sooner or later its just over, over
I don’t wanna get inside your mind or your pants
I don’t wanna waste my time with love and romance
I want my next-ex-girlfriend, my next-ex-girlfriend
I don’t want the fairy tale and
I don’t want the girl from hell
Don't wanna be your biggest mistake
You can be my next-ex-girlfriend, my next-ex-girlfriend
I don’t wanna learn to dance don’t wanna rent the limo
I know your thinking I’m a weirdo
I just want the bragging rights I want to let the world know
Convince my friends I’m not a homo
When you walk out I don’t wanna feel left out
Cuz sooner or later its just over, over
I don’t wanna get inside your mind or your pants
I don’t wanna waste my time with love and romance
I want my next-ex-girlfriend, my next-ex-girlfriend
I don’t want the fairy tale and
I don’t want the girl from hell
Don't wanna be your biggest mistake
You can be my next-ex-girlfriend, my next-ex-girlfriend
Tell everyone im good in the sack
But all your friends were giving you flack
And you just couldn’t put up with that
So no your never taking me back
I don’t wanna get inside your mind or your pants
I don’t wanna waste my time with love and romance
I want my next-ex-girlfriend, my next-ex-girlfriend
I don’t want the fairy tale and
I don’t want the girl from hell
And I don’t want to spend the time
And I don’t need no valentine
My next-ex-girl friend, my next-ex-girlfriend |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 30th, 2006|11:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Highschool Never Ends- Bowling for Soup | ] |
Ok guys, first concert...BOWLING FOR SOUP! SO AWESOME! LOVE ROCKIN!
Standing outside the fair park collesium breathing the stale air that has been used by thousands of people. Waiting in line with the ticktet slightly damp from the sweat in the palm of my hand, with the perferrated tear off almost about to fall off. I hand the ticket taker my ticket and recieve the rest of it. The already botteled up excitement is seeping out of me as we make our way to the concert. When we walk through the narrow hall and all of a sudden being eaten up and being overwhelmed my the lights, stage, and just the concert atmosphere that I've never experienced. Our seats weren't numbered so we had a wide variety of choices to sit. We all settle down and sit down with all of our stuff so excited and anxious to see the Jaret and the rest of the guys make their way to the stage. They start the concert and the whole time we were on our feet with out punk rock signs up jumping and screaming the lyrics as loud as we can. Once it's over the excitment from my first concert settles in. 24 hours ago I was rocking out...and I'm still freaking out about it! |
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| The One |
[Sep. 24th, 2006|10:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Stolen- Dashboard Confessional | ] |
"I know what I can do! It's something I learned in highschool, it's like riding a bike"
"No, you are not having sex on this stage"
The light breeze ruffeling through my hair. I can feel the soft, warm sand in between my toes while the wind messes with my half buttoned up shirt. The tide comes in to greet us hand in hand walking down the beach in the beautiful orange and purple setting sun. Nothing has to be said. All that we need is to look into each other's eyes. We subtly stop and turn around joining our free hands. We both look into each other's eyes. I take my free hand and stroke it through her hair as she leans in to rest her head on my chest. As she starts to cry I tell her everything is going to be okay. She pulls away leaving stains from her tears on part of my shirt and looks at me. I look at her back with the same twinkle in my eye. She leans into my kiss with inoccent beautiful blue eyes. The moment our lips touch, I know she's the one. |
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